I know I haven’t posted anything here for a while, but it’s not exactly for lack of trying. I have at least 5 posts I’ve been trying to write but I just can’t seem to get anything to the point I actually feel comfortable posting it lately.
I’ve been in a bit of a funk the past few weeks (okay, that’s a massive understatement), but I believe yesterday evening was a huge turning point for me.
I’ve been checking out a new church lately (while still going to my current one — I love those people dearly but the church just isn’t accessible, and I don’t feel like it’s a place I can really be used), I’ve been there 3 times now and yesterday the pastor’s mother took it upon herself to make sure that I got to sing. I sang one of my own songs that I haven’t sang in public for probably a year or more, and it went really well. God seems to have touched nearly everyone in that service through my song, I had people chasing me down to make sure I knew about it, too. I’ve never seen a reaction that strong before, and the timing was great, I really needed the pick-me-up.
After that, the pastor’s sermon hit me just right, I’m not even sure what he said exactly, but it was just what I needed to hear to finally let go and step out on faith on a couple of things that have been holding me back for a long time. To top it all off, one of the ladies invited me to come join a group at McD’s after the service, and we sat there talking until they kicked us out at midnight. If you know me very well you’ll probably be able to pick out about 7 answered prayers in the past couple paragraphs.
After I got home I pulled an all-nighter, I had some contractors due to come install a new door and I didn’t want to sleep through it (which is the only bit of bad news in this post, it started pouring down rain around sunrise, and they had to postpone til Friday). While I was up, I managed to get about 20 more songs recorded for the Praise Songs Database, and I actually got them updated to the site, along with a bunch of updates I’ve been putting off for months.
Then I made a couple of phone calls — I got resolution on one issue that’s been seriously stressful for me for the past 2 months, and I made the first step in finding a solution for another issue that’s been a huge stressor for years now.
So all in all this is shaping up to be a really awesome week, here’s hoping the trend continues, but even if it doesn’t I think I’ve had enough blessings to carry me for a little while.